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[22 Oct 2006 | Sunday]


1:02 AM - L0Ve is 4eva

assemblage 23- skin
syrian- no atmosphere (raindancer mix) =O
i love that band. they are sooo cute. i cant even understand them half the time they have this accent and screw around the sounds.
for some reason all the music luis put on puter died. so im back to listening to ebm and afi and a lot of random emo....

OH I DIDN"T TELL YOU ALL BUT THIS IS SOOOO FUCKING EXCITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i got my period yesterday.
even though it made me cry and i got it in the middle of school so i was like shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit the whole day.. i was really relieved. craps were bad ass, but they're pretty much gone now....
frozen plasma- hypocrite
but doesn't that show you about not eating ur meals. it screws up ur period. NOT GOOD!!! definitely thought it would come in another... 2 weeks... yeah.

art class was sucky today because we went to the god damn art museum. i hate that. i hate looking at retarded shit. half that crap isn't worth crap. its like... lines or something. i dont know. like a while board. THATS WAHT I CALL ART!!!!!!!! not. and also i had been to the art museum 2 months ago... so i already saw everything i saw today... so i was really bored. oh well. life.

i worked on my homework the rest of the day.

im not getting my lip pierced this weekend like how was planned. my father apparently thinks he owns my body and wont let anything damage it or anything............................................................. LET ME FUCKING GROW UP JESUS FUCKING CHRIST. =( i was so hoping.. mother said next weekend. ha. like THAT is gonna happen. i fucking hate liars. dont keep putting it off. just tell me it aint gonna happen so i can do it myself and do it wrong and get it infected like last time. last 2 times.
this is a good song

oh wow i cried sooooo much yesterday while i was talking to carl. but that night i never felt better. i actually felt a little ok. like i liked people and luis didn't matter.. but yeah. then i woke up.

I HATE FRESHMAN

aaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr cut me.

actually i think talking to carl really did help me a lot. even if it really upset me a lot and made me do violent things....... it was very good and i feel a lot stronger and more... like.. i dunno. more hateful than internal anger. it just feels a lot better.

omg luis sent me a message. i was like =O

dude. im so lonely.
what ever.

i just feel all cold and stuffs. just all cold. blah.
i need friends. i was so depressed yesterday. i had reason. i got period. im never happen when me on period. i kinda die a little. blah. i wish.

love is forever- apoptygma berezerk
GASR- adrenaline

when ever i put on my belt i remember when i said to luis, my belt is breaking =( and he said, im fat and i got over it. that made me feel like shit. not like it matters. its just that its in my head all the time. and i keep feeling like shit. thanx for making me feel like shit. i wish i coudl do the same for you.

but no seriously, i wonder what would happen if i killed myself. to the people i dont know. the people who dont know me. what would happen. i just think about it a lot i guess. like all those people who i sit next to in class, or i see in the hall, or take the same bus to school.. i dunno. i just wonder if they would care.

i dont think i would.





xm
she is in the dark- syrian. this is an amazing song.

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8:52 PM - me being anorexic..................

OOOOH LETS SEE IF I CAN GET DOWN TO 90 BY NEXT MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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2:26 PM - im not ok

there is nothing.

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[20 Oct 2006 | Friday]


9:23 PM - GET YOUR BODY BEAT

im in a slightly better mood than before when i was talking to carl. i can actually talk like a sane person. yay.
GASR is an amazing band. no seriously. i love them. i actually cannot name any of their songs... or identify them at all... BUT they're still coolio.
i loooooooooooooove the echoing green and seabound. they kinda come together for me because i think i heard of both them at around the same time. one i think is synthpop... the echoing green.. maybe. and the other is more ebm like. what ever.
GASR- no empathy
=)
i have not been this depressed for like... well i was pretty depressed this summer. but i could kinda keep it under control. i had hope. we'll say that. the smmer of 2005 was one of the worst 2 months i've had... and the end of the 2006 school year when they kicked me out. i cant remember it at all, but i know that i was suffering in some way. ha. it was only a few months ago and i cant remember anything. ha. forgetting is a healing and also harmful trait.
we'll see how long this luis thing lasts. i hope my grades stay up. i cant afford for them to drop any more.................. not like im getting any REALLY bad grades. but i do want to have all As. i think i have 3 As.. and the rest Bs. my history grade should go up soon. im working really hard... although i dispize the teacher. hes so racist and pro bush and that kind of christian who is rediculous and completely closed minded. OH WELL. he's giving me a grade. not like i have to learn anything. just get good grades.
THE USED
TRUST COMPANY
i did 20 push ups in pe today. it was good to know that i still had a little strength in me even when i haven't been working out in half a year. =)
i could have gotten to 25 if i really really tried.... really tried. maybe 30 if i cheated a little. =)
they weren't totally good push ups though. i wasn't going all the way down. just like.... my face coming around 7 inches off the ground. yeah. = ..
i used to be able to go lower i swear.
unearthed
I LOVE ART AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH im very excited about my drawing class tomorrow. what kind of a nerd am i anyway? im not even that good of an artist.. =(

I LOVE THE USED =O
xm

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6:12 PM - This ring in my head.. is it a cure or is a disease...

i'm so exhausted. i just feel completely worn through. i feel like im dragging my dead rotting carcass across the desert.. and if i fall, i will be hated. so i must keep going. no matter how slow. im so poetic... not. i just feel liek shit. all my slow him music makes me cry so much. i just have no idea where all this love and passion is that he sings about. i wanted to be in love so much. i tried so hard to love him. and forgive him for everything he did. it was so hard to try. so hard to pretend. i dont even know any more. i dont even know what i cry about any more. sometimes i listen to afi and the words are so perfect.. but i swear he doesn't feel this pain im feeling.. but he says it so.. i dunno. i like the lyrics better in sing the sorrow but black sails still has some prettey amazing stuff. the last kiss. the lyrics aren't that amazing and are even kind of tacky and cliche, but somehow its how i feel. well, at least a large part of what im struggling with. god. i dont know any more. i dont know why i cry. i dont know why i give up. i dont know why i scream. i dont know.. blah. it just makes me exhausted. what ever it is. i am so tired. just so dead tired. and i do think about suicide. but not like before. now its not as tangible. its more foggy and far away, like im just thinking about its meaning but not the actual thing. the actual pain and suffering and murder of so many. before i could see myself jumping.. falling. and then i took those pills and it all became unreal.
luis makes me remember every fault i have. every thing i regret. every terrible or stupid thing i've done. everything. and the pain is so magnified its rediculous. im so close up i cant even see what im thinking about or seeing any more. all i know is that i dont feel whole inside. completely... like there is nothing. i dont know. just nothing. there is nothing. its hard talking to carl, the little time i get, because hes looking from a guys point of view.. which is good. but he is somewhat defensive. and i cant take that right now. i cant take any more of this... this i dunno. nothingness. coldness. the world is so cold. it is so black and corrupt. even loving now, seeing beauty hurts so much. it hurts to be happy. it hurts to be angry, sad, excited, interested.. it hurts to feel. and not feeling at all is the worst.
i feel so ignorant. like im in the middle of this, but i cant see outside of myself. all i know is that im upset and im trying to hide it from everyone. with my mom its easy because its just like, stress from homework or something. and also im usually depressed. but my therapists are so probing. and i just cant give any facial expression or anything. i know i should tell, but i cant. i just cant. i dont know how. i dont want to. i hate them. i hate myself. im ashamed. im ashamed of myself and everything i have done.
de/vision- drifting sideways
i weigh 99 pounds.
im not sure if i like that. its like, both. i want to starve myself, but skinny people are so ugly. i dont need to suffer any more. hmph.
i wish luis would talk to me. that would be amazing. a sentence. wow. i cant even imagine it. i mean dude, i barely get even one word out of him. so a whole sentence... it might even call for a party.

but i wouldn't count on it. why would he do something like that. hes too busy running away.
-m

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[19 Oct 2006 | Thursday]


9:24 PM - afi cures all heart ache

im so depressed. =( tomorrow is friday and everything too. im kinda dreading the weekend. i dunno why. *shrugs* i cant tell if im trying to be miserable or if thats how i really feel. i feel selfish. =(

this celluloid dream is like my favorite song everrrr. like, for serious.

you land as lightly as the new snow. you land as gently as snow....

oh i dunno. i hate nights because thats just a lot of silent time for me to think. i hate thinking. god. my mental pain is creating physical pain. i've lost appetite. OH WELL i dont care. i just wish there was some relief or something. oh my jesus i love afi.. old afi mind you. when i obsesse over afi im obsessing over old/middle afi. i do like some of the new songs.. some. yeah.

oh my jesus another afi song =O well looky that. and usually shuffle gives shitty songs. hmm.

death of seasons.

its starting to get dark early. i adore this time of year.

i miss luis. =(
i think thats what hurts the most.

--me
ps. it wont be alright. dispite what they say.

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[18 Oct 2006 | Wednesday]


9:10 PM - XMASlIST!!!... plus lost prophet reminiscing

stationary =)
jewelry.. that is nice.. not cheep or crappy. i dont wear crappy cheap jewelry.
whoa i like some atreyu. im really going back and forth on liking them or not. as long as i dont listen to their lyrics then i like them. how sad.
anyway
stuffed animals =D
clothes! but not crappy clothes
omg cds! ANOTHER KORN CD OMGMGOGOG dude i dont even listen to them all that much any more. how sad is that? i used to adore that band. they used to be my theme music. "...since i was young i tasted sorrow on my tongue..." coming undone. its actually a good song. i like how heavy it is.
OMGOGMGOMI LOVE AFI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im wearing my afi shirt. you can get me more afi shirts if you want. i dont mind seconds.. so you can get me any shirt. i dont mind having two of the same shirt. but i do have the afi decemberunderground (with branches and shizz) shirt and also the a fire inside shirt with the drowning woman. but i've worn that so much its practily worn through. i adore that shirt. my fav shirt EVERRRR.
omg im listening to the last train home by the lost prophets and it brings me back to my shitty years... way back... *sob*
i like roses too
KNIVES OMGOGMOOMG
...but theres still tomorrow. so forget the sorrow...
say we have a reason to ever fall in love.. i wonder if you're listening..

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6:20 PM - ...you call yourself a victem...-static x [more ranting]

shoot shoot shoot mother fucker. shoot here...


dont get AIDS:: dont share your knives and razorblades


yay happy its my birthday lala.... only not. i dont care. shoot me.

yesterday sucked ass shit. i was pmsing fosho. but definitely not period time.. so i dunno whats all screwing around or what ever. if im pregnant...

i got 3 birthday presents so far. one from my mom. one from my grandmother. and one from a friend. yeah. oh wait no i got one from my dad too.. a little laptop thing................ i dont like them. same as i feel about cellulars. pshh i dont need it. it's just unnecessary luxury to get addicted to. what ever. i dont want to be one of those rich white preppy kids who complain about getting nice shit. thats just 'selfish' and 'conceited'. yeah i know. you dont have to go whining to ur friends about how ignorant i am. i've heard it before.

so, my sister called and she asked how luis and i were doing. and i told her we broke up and she was all sad like, but then she was like, im just really happy he didn't fuck you. and i was like, ouch. but it was the phone and i held cover.
its hard to be surounded by people who have been raped. you lose faith in all men. every single one.

last year exactly this day i had sworn to myself that i would kill myself. and i didn't. sad. 16 was such a big year.. number. everything exciting happened. i turned 16, i took a bunch of pills, i got suspended and expelled, got luis and got fucked up. yeah. i hope i dont forget. ever. i need a tattoo...

i listened to some amazing music yesterday and then when i tried to look up the lyrics online they were void. oh, and psats today. fun. they weren't that bad actually. parts of english were sooo easy. parts were hard. same with math. i guess thats normal.

its the fear, the fear of the darkness growing inside of me....-its the fear, within temptation. they're actually popular and possibly mainstream in england... maybe. thats the impression i got.

im starting to not be able to sleep cuz of this luis thing. i dont know what to do. im seeing everyone as ugly and disguisting. i take offense from every single word, picture.. everything. i feel like im going crazy. i think i am. O_o i want to beat myself. to get my mind so releaf from this hurting and hating. i can barely listen to any music with out finding some sexual reference. and you all knew how perverted i was before.. yeah, its killing me now.

i feel like.....
everyone should kill themselves. how beautiful would that be. a world void of pain. thats what i call world peace.



im brought back to the women at westtown and indian brook who were so strong and who i looked up to so much. and how the the thought of them is the only way im not feeling completely alone. i just have to think that there are so many strong beautiful women who aren't pathetic and run by magazines and fashion and pressure. who defy every fucking rule and even when they are hated, they are still strong. i think about some of them, and i feel so lonely. next to them i feel so weak... and yet reenergized and content with myself. AAAHHH IM SUCH A BUTCH LESBIAN!!! xxpt not.. but what ever. i wish i was. i hate men. i hate everything about them. i feel almost asexual. men make me feel disguisting. =( IM SO STUPID AARRRRGGG AND HYPOCRITICAL but everyone else is more. at least im not saying im someone.. like everyone. im kinda like.. nothing really. im not really there.

i dont belong to central. i never will. im not proud of the school. im not happy i go there. the people there are not who i find attractive. the teachers dont diferentiate between kids. the people are pathetic and weak. man, if i could beat them.. i'd beat them until they were blood and flesh in a mess on the floor. bones shattered and muscles and organs torn apart. im so not in the mood for argument right now. i dont even give a shit. fuck. im so tired of fighting with myself. i just feel so guilty. its all my fault. WHO EVER THE FUCK IS CALLING ME NEEDS TO FUCKING SHUT THE FUCK UP. I OBVIOUSLY DO NOT WANT TO TALK TO YOU. GO FUCKING SHOOT YOURSELF. NO ONE WILL CARE. I DARE YOU TO THINK ANYONE WILL.


fuck you.
shoot your face off.
ugly ass cunt.

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[17 Oct 2006 | Tuesday]


3:03 PM - what i hate most

when people put a list of all the bands they know in their 'fav music' list. i hate that. so now im doing it. YES I LOVE HYPOCRITS!!
**im going to add pop, hip hop, rap, r&b, country, pop rock soon. calm down, this list takes time
**please note that i have not heard a lot of these band's music. dont get too excited when you see that i have ashley simpson or something.

3 doors down
3 inches of blood
50 cent

afi
adema
atreyu
and one
as i lay dying
audition, the
a perfect murder
assemblage 23
ac/dc
alien sex fiend
a life once lost
all that remains
alien ant farm
a static lullaby
arch enemy
arcade fire, the
apoptygma bezerk
armor for sleep
aphex twin
ayria
avenged sevenfold
audioslave
academy is, the
aiden
aerosmith
aborum
alice in chains
alexisonfire
anal cunt
anorexia nervosa
anthrax
a perfect circle
abba
alice cooper
alkaline trio
all american rejects, the
anti flag
alter bridge
arctic monkeys
alanis morssette
asphyxia
ani difranco
aqua

ashlee simpson
aaron carter
alicia keys
ashanti
avril lavigne

breaking benjamin
beastie boys
black sabbath
bad acid trip
beecher
bayside
bleeding through
blink 182
bjork
black dahlia murder, the
bush
beck
burning brides
bullet for my valentine
bad religion
backstreet boys
brand new
bobaflex
beborn beton
beatles, the
beach boys
better than ezra
billy idol
black stone cherry
bon jovi
birthday massacre, the
between the buried and me
black lable society
blood brothers, the
buried alive
bury your dead
bare naked ladies
billy joel
bob markley
beyonce
b2k
baby bash
black eyed peas
britney spears

craft
combichrist
chevelle
crossbreed
casualties, the
chemical brothers, the
children of bodom
covenant
chimaira
coal chamber
cky
cannibal corpse
carcass
carpathian forest
celtic frost
catch 22
cell dweller
cold
creed
crossbreed
comeback kid
cradle of filth
calling, the
clash, the
cinderella
cypress hill
cure, the
crystal method
cruxshadows, the
cake
counting crows
collective soul
clutch
the click five
coheed and cambria
coldplay
courtney love
cranberries
clap your hands say yeah
cher
celine dion
chingy
chris brown
christina aguilera
clay aiken
ciara

dido
dead
dope stars inc
dope, edsel
dream theatre
daft punk
dark tranquility
danzig
darkest hour
dave chappelle
de/vision
deadlock
deftones
dimmu borgir
disturbed
david bowie
darkness, the
dashboard confissional
dave matthew's band
dead kennedies
deathcab for cutie
decemberists, the
depeche mode
difranco, ani
diplomats, the
dir en grey
dishwalla
dar williams
dirty vegas
distillers
dixie chicks
doors, the
dresden dolls, the
drop dead, gorgeous
drowning pool
dragonforce
dylan, bob
damage plan
dark funeral
das ich
dawn of eternity
dead to the world
decay
deicide
dismanteled
dillinger esape plan
dying fetus
diskonnekted
die form
doomsday refreshment commity
donnas, the
daddy yankee
destiny's child
dr dre

echoing green, the
echo image
evanescence
extol
edgewater
element eighty
erasure
evans blue
eve6
everclear
epsilon minus
enthroned
early november, the
every time i die
elton john
eminem
eric clapton

franz ferdinand
fall of troy, the
finger eleven
fear factory
front 242
finntroll
faceless
from autumn to ashes
from first to last
front line assembly
frost
full blown chaos
funeral for a friend
flyleaf
foo fighters
fall out boy
finch
flaming lips
flogging molly
fray, the
feul
faithless
flesh field
funeral for a friend
franchize boyz
fabolous
faith evans
faith hill
fat joe

godsmack
godsent
gorillaz
god forbid
garbage
girls under glass
gasr
good charlotte
goo goo dolls
greatful dead
greenday
guns n roses
gwar
gym class heros
guano apes
gary numan
god dethroned
grave digger
god module
grendal
game, the
g unit
gwen stefani

hives, the
hate eternal
hatebreed
hinder
haunted
horse the band
hypocracy
human error
hawthorn heights
head hung low
headspeed
him
head automatica
hear'say
hellogoodbye
hoobastank
hot hot heat
how to dismantal an atomic bomb
halifax
hinder
headscan
hansons, the
haylie duff
hilary duff
howie day

iris
interpol
insane clown posse
ill nino
immortal
in flames
incubus
iggy pop
indego girls
iron maiden
i killed the prom queen
iced earth
infected
it dies today
icon of coil
infected mushroom
i:scintilla
interface
ice cube

jack off jill
john 5
joy division
jesus on extacy
janes addiction
jet
jimi hendrix
jimmy eat world
johnny cash
jimmy fallon
jon bon jovi
judas priest
junior varsity, the
justincase
june
ja rule
james blunt
john lennon
jamie foxx
janet jackson
jay z
jennifer lopez
jessica simpson
jesse mccartney
jewel
justin timberlake
john legend
jojo
josie and the pussycats

kidney thieves
korn
kmfdm
killswitch engage
kittie
kiss
keane
kill hannah
kelly osbourne
kid rock
killers, the
kanye west
katie holmes
kelly clarkson
kevin lyttle
keyshia cole

lacuna coil
lamb of god
laruso
live
limp bizkit
led zeppelin
lennon
linkin park
lost prophets
le tigre
lady may
less than jake
living end
love, courtney
lynyrd skynyrd
libertines, the
ladytron
london after midnight
lights of euphoria
living dead
lit
lil bow wow
lloyd banks
lil kim
lil jon and the east side boyz
lil romeo
lindsay lohan
liz phair
ll cool j
ludacris

muse
modest mouse
marilyn manson
mars volta
monkees
mayhem
mesh
metallica
mindless self indulgence
misfits
mudvayne
motion city soundtrack
meatloaf
mushroomhead
massiv in mensch
my chemical romance
manowar
mastodon
megadeth
ministy
mortal decay
mortiis
motley crue
murderdolls
my dying bride
massive attack
matchbook romance
mcgraw, tim
mest
motorhead
music, the
merge
mind.in.a.box
my suicide dream
mandy moore
mariah carey
mario
marvin gaye
michelle branch
mick jagger
mike jones
missy elliott
mos def

neuroticfish
new found glory
nightwish
nine inch nails
nocturne
nirvana
new order
nickelback
nofx
nargaroth
napalm death
nevermore
nihil nocturn
norma jean
namnambulu
n sync
nelly furtado
nick carter
nick lachey
no doubt
norah jones

opeth
ozzy osbourne
offspring, the
oomph!
otep
order from chaos
orgy
oasis
our lady peace
o.v.n.i.
omarion
outkast

pantera
papa roach
paramore
peppers ghost
panic! at the disco
pearl jam
pennywise
phish
pink
pink floyd
plain white ts
p.o.d.
poison the well
postal service, the
powerman 5000
primus
puddle of mudd
project pitchfork
parallel project
plasticchrist

queens of the stone age
queensryche
queen

rage against the machine
rancid
rammstein
radiohead
raconteurs,the
rotorsand
ramsus, the
red hot chili peppers
reel big fish
rise against
rob zombie
rolling stones
roots, the
rage
raunchy
red chord, the
rotting christ
razed in black
relient k

saliva
satyricon
seether
sepultura
sevendust
shadows fall
shattersphere
shinedown
siebengurgen
silverstein
six feet under
skindred
skinny puppy
slayer
slipknot
smile empty soul
soil
soilwork
soulfly
soundgarden
staind
static-x
stone sour
strapping young lad
suicidal tendancies
summon
system of a down
s club 7
santana
saves the day
saving jane
say anything
scissor sisters
scorpions
seal
sex pistols
shania twain
silverchair
silvertide
simon and garfunkel
simple plan
skid row
slightly stoopid
smashing pumpkins
smash mouth
snow patrol
something corporate
spice girls
spitalfield
steps
stone temple piolets
story of the year
strokes, the
styx
sublime
sugarcult
sum 41
switchfoot
seabound
sero.overdose
servo.hatred
system syn
storm without cease
streets, the
syrian
suicide commando
silent auction

three days grace
trivium
taking back sunday
thousand foot krutch
third eye blind
t3chn0ph0b1a
trust company
trapt
transplants, the
throwdown
tool
thrice

unter null
underoath
used, the
u2

vnv nation
virtual embrace
vertical horizon
velvet revolver

white snake
within temptation
wolfmother
wallflowers, the
wumpscut
wolfsheim

xp8

yellowcard

zeromancer

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[13 Oct 2006 | Friday]


2:16 PM - MUSIC LOVE + fav songs


MUSIC:: SIMPLY ORGASMIC

DOPE STARS INC. (DARIN AND GRACE ARE SO FINE)
COMBICHRIST
NEUROTIC FISH
RAZED IN BLACK
AS I LAY DYING
FROM FIRST TO LAST
LONDON AFTER MIDNIGHT
AFI (A FIRE INSIDE)
CKY (CAMP KILL YOURSELF)
ASSEMBLAGE 23
IN FLAMES
KILLSWITCH ENGAGE
HIM (HIS INFERNAL MAJESTY)
KORN
ZEROMANCER
MARILYN MANSON
NIGHTWISH
WITHIN TEMPTATION
STATIC X
STONE SOUR
TRUST COMPANY



a fire inside- the prayer position
a fire inside- no poetic device
a fire inside- the last kiss
a fire inside- at a glance
a fire inside- days of the pheonix
a fire inside- the leaving song pt 2
a fire inside- bleed black
a fire inside- silver and cold
a fire inside- dancing through sunday
a fire inside- death of seasons
a fire inside- the great disappointment
a fire inside- paper airplanes (makeshift wings)
a fire inside- this celluloid dream
a fire inside- ...but home is nowhere
a fire inside- this time imperfect
a fire inside- prelude 12/21
a fire inside- summer shudder
a fire inside- love like winter
a fire inside- killing lights
armor for sleep- car underwater
as i lay dying- confined
as i lay dying- forever
as i lay dying- 94 hours
assemblage 23- house on fire
assemblage 23- naked
assemblage 23- king of insects
audioslave- cochise
audioslave- show me how to live
audioslave- exploder
audioslave- hypnotize
audioslave- bring 'em back alive
alice in chains- man in the box
alice in chains- them bones
alice in chains- would?
breaking benjamin- so cold
beborn beton- another world
bush- the chemicals between us (+578329749302 more)
beyonce- naughty girl
beyonce- crazy in love
beyonce- baby boy
britney spears- touch of my hand
bullet for my valentine- all these things i hate
the burning brides- heart full of black
the calling- wherever you will go
the calling- adienne
chevelle- vitamin r
chevelle- the clincher
children of bodom- in your face
cky- 96 quite bitter beings
combichrist- like to thank my buddies
combichrist- today i woke up to the rain of blood
combichrist- without emotions
combichrist- feed your anger
combichrist- this is my rifle
comeback kid- wake the dead
cradle of filth- born ina burial gown
cradle of filth- of dark blood and fucking
cradle of filth- death comes ripping
cradle of filth- sleepless
cradle of filth- funeral in carpathia
cradle of filth- her ghost in the fog
cradle of filth- nemesis
cradle of filth- nymphetamine (overdose)
cradle of filth- swan song for a raven
cradle of filth- guilded cunt
crossfade- cold
crossfade- colors
cypress hill- whats your number
cypress hill- busted in the hood
cypress hill- another body drops
deadlock- earth revolt
deadlock- kingdom of the dead
disturbed- sickness
disturbed- land of confusion
dope stars inc- fast and beautiful
erasure- oh l'amour
foo fighters- learn to fly
fear factory- moment of impact
goo goo dolls- iris
guns n roses- sweet child of mine
hatebreed- i will be heard
him- buried alive by love
-funeral of hearts
beyond redemption
-sweet pandemonium
-soul on fire
-sacrament
-circle of fear
-endless dark
-love's requium
-join me
-right here in my arms
-bury my deep inside ur heart
-wicked game
-i love you
-gone iwth the sin
-razorblade kiss
-resurrection
-death is in love with us
-heaven tonight
-sigillum diaboli
-one last time
interpol- slow hands
in flames- pinball map
in flames- come clarity
in flames- take this life
in flames- man made god
in flames- trigger
in flames- reroute to remain
in flames- quiet place
iris- annie would i lie to you
john 5- flatlines, thin lines
keane- somewhere only we know
killswitch engage- the end of heartache
killswitch engage- rose of sharyn
korn-
-dead
-falling away from me
-trash
-4 u
-beg for me
-make me bad
-hey daddy
-somebody someone
-lets get this party started
-coming undone
-falling away from me
-hypocrits
-twisted transister
lacuna coil- our truth
linkin park- numb
muse- time is running out
muse- hysteria
muse- bullets and butterflies
mesh- it scares me
marilyn manson- the reflecting god
marilyn manson- the fight song
marilyn manson- disposable teens
marilyn manson- new shit
mm- rock it dead
mm- beautiful people
mindless self indulgence- faggot
mudvayne- happy?
nevarakka- baby let me know
neuroticfish- bomb (+89502 more songs)
nightwish- nemo
nightwish- kuolema tekke taitelilijan
nighwish- live to tell the tale
nine inch nails- closer
nine inch nails- the hand that feeds
ozzy-
-that i never had
-mr crowley
-gets me through
-thunder underground
-paranoid
-iron man (+43829 more)
papa roach- be free
papa roach- last resort
papa roach- getting away with murder
papa roach- i just wanna be loved
pearl jam- alive
rammstein- du hast
razed in black- oh my goth
siebenburgen- rebellion
skinny puppy- bark
skinny puppy- daddyuwarbash
slipknot- duality
the strokes- reptillia
seabound- poisoness friend
sean paul- we be burning
sean paul- ...that other one... i dont remember
static-x
-push it
-bled for days
-shadow zone
-get to the gone
-im the one
-dirthouse
-skinnyman
-just in case
-set it off
-night terrors
-my damnation
system of a down- chop suey
sero.overdose- sometimes
syrian- atomic
trivium- dying in your arms
trivium- pull harder on the strings of your martyr
virtual embrace- she
virtual embrace- virtual embrace
velvet revolver- slither
the vines- ride
within temptation- its the fear
xp8-
zeromancer- send me an angel
zeromancer- dr online


played october 7

three days grace- scared
throwdown- hate for the weak
lacuna coil- a current obsession
throwdown- give my life
killswitch engage- temple from the within
killswitch engage- my last serenade
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killswitch engage- life to lifeless
killswitch engage- rose of sharyn
killswitch engage- the end of heartache
killswitch engage- rose of sharyn
kmfdm-
combichrist- like to thank my buddies
combichrist- today i woek up to the rain of blood
combichrist- without emotions
combichrist- minus one
combichrist- history of madness
combichrist- human error
combichrist- this is the joy of gunz
combichrist- winteryear
comback kid- wake the dead
cradle of filth- born in a burial gown
cradle of filth- from the cradle to enslave
cradle of filth- of dark blood and fucking
cradle of filth- death comes ripping
cradle of filth- sleepless
cradle of filth- funeral in carpathia
cradle of filth- dawn of eternity
cradle of filth- creatures that kissed in cold mirrors
cradle of filth- her ghost in the fog
cradle of filth- lord abortion
cradle of filth- amor e morte
cradle of filth- lustmore and wargasm
cradle of filth- of dark blood and fucking (stripped to the bone mix)
cradle of filth- hallowed by thy name
cradle of filth- absinthe with faust
cradle of filth- gilded cunt
cradle of filth- the fire still burns
dark tranquility- one thought
dark tranquility- dry run
dark tranquility- am i 1?
dark tranquiltiy- senses tied
dark tranquility- my negation
darkest hour- sadist nation
darkest hour- convalescence
darkest hour- sound the surrender
darkest hour- an epitaph
deadlock- kingdom of the dead
disturbed- prayer
disturbed- liberate
disturbed- awaken

played october 11-13
beecher- function! function! (i found it appropriet for my math homework)
korn- coming undone
siebenburgen- rebellion
marilyn manson- disposable teens
static-x- black and white
afi- no poetic device
from autumn to ashes- lilacs & lolita
armor for sleep- basement ghost song
in flames- pinball map
from autumn to ashes- no trivia
dark tranquility- the endless feed
as i lay dying- illusions
crossfade- so far away
chevelle- the clincher
disturbed- breathe
trivium- like light to the flies
deadlock- the year of the crow
zeromancer- need you like a drug
as i lay dying- the pain of seperation
jimmy eat world- sweetness
throwdown- false idols
illl nino- fallen
breaking benjamin- so cold
dark tranquility- lost to apathy
john 5- flatlines, thin lines
hatebreed- i will be heard
lacuna coil- our truth
dark tranquility- am i 1?
horse the band- sevententacles and eight flame
afi- bleed black
dark tranquility- one thought
the 69 eyes- framed in blood
combichrist- like to thank my buddies
combichrist- today i woke up to the rain of blood
combichrist- without emotions
armor for sleep- car underwater
as i lay dying- confined
as i lay dying- forever
as i lay dying- empty hearts
as i lay dying- 94 hours
assemblage 23- naked
bullet for my valentine- four words to choke upon
bullet for my valentine- cries in vain
bullet for my valentine- curses
bullet for my valentine- no control
bullet for my valentine- just another star
bullet for my valentine- hand of blood
bullet for my valentine- suffocating under words of sorrow
bullet for my valentine- spit you out
bullet for my valentine- turn to despair
bullet for my valentine- all these things i hate
bullet for my valenting- the poison
bush- the chemicals between us
catalyst of terror- as we fight
foo fighters- learn to fly
from autumn to ashes- the second wrong makes you feel right
from autumn to ashes- every reason to
from autumn to ashes- autumn's monologue
from autumn to ashes- alive out of habit
from autumn to ashes- all i taste today is whats her name
from autumn to ashes- the fiction we live in
from autumn to ashes- im the best at ruining my life
from first to last- secrets dont make friends
from first to last- populace in two
from first to last- ride the wings of pestilence
from first to last- the one armed boxer vs the flying guillotine
from first to last- emily
from first to last- failure by designer jeans
from first to last- kiss me im contagious
from first to last- note to self
god forbid- the end of the world
god forbid- chains of humanity
god forbid- into the wasteland
god forbid- the lonely dead
god forbid- divinity
god forbid- under this flag
hawthorne heights- niki fm
head hung low- ashes, bones burnt to dust
him- buring alive by love
him- the funeral of hearts
him- sweet pandemonium
him- resurrection
him- death is in love with us
him- heaven tonight
him- sigillum diaboli